Lately my writing engine resembles that of a stalled motor boat. I feel like I am in the center of a massive lake with little sight of how to get back to land. I know the answer. I need to just dive in and start swimming. What I want to do though, is to fix the engine and go full speed ahead.
NOTE: I did not say ocean. I am going to see a lake as the glass half full, at least I know that no matter which way I go there is indeed land.
I don’t seem to have enough time to work full time, keep my house – uh organized, raise a child, be pregnant with another, make sure my husband knows I still love him and sleep. There is no mention on writing in that small list of daily activities is there?
I’d love to make a career change to something more satisfying but I don’t think that I know where to start. I would love a job involving writing, but at home. I do some technical writing but in an office and it gets mingled with a million other jobs. I debate if I went back to school could I learn to copy-write, or copy-write edit? Could I learn to edit at all? Could I find a job that would use technical writing? Well for those who depend on their income, a career change is a stressful prospect and not one takes lightly. The issue I have is that I am not a risk taker. I sort of feel like I am back in highschool, where is my career mentor now?
Well aside from not loving what I do for a living, like most other humans, I am so busy that my dream seems to be taking a back seat. Writing is what grounds me. Even if no one were to ever read my stories I would still write them because they are my outlet. I am sure most other writers feel this way too. So when I say I am stalled out from writing, because I can’t seem to find the time or the motivation, a part of me is missing.
When do kids start to be more independent again? Maybe then I will get the chance to write – of course then the only issues is will be: is do I dive in or keep sitting in the boat waiting for the right words to rescue me?
Well aren’t I just a ray of sunshine today… perhaps it’s time to get off the boat dive in and at least try and find a little excitement. It’s only Tuesday and I and not being miss happy.